Born Sinner

Nothing’s ventured, nothing’s gained

Nothing feels right in this infinite world

This life is a strict teacher

Everyday i turn the page in this examination

Am i here for material possessions or spiritual virtues?

Or to hide behind a metaphor, what am i here for?

Half way out of my mind, half of me is malicious

Vicious life, harsh life

Half of the kids on this troubled estate

Are baby daddies, yolo dons, college fuckups

A black blossoming flower raised in dirt diamond dirt

Grew up in insanity, struggled in poverty

With no dough to show, felt depraved and low

It’s a dog eat dog world, I keep digging myself into a horrible hole

Fell in love with a whore, a broad

And I couldn’t afford, temporary pleasures

She was a rough rider, i was a sensual kisser

I made power trips to see her, which were an arm and a leg

Distance was a bitch, but I knew she had that golden glow

To drag dark stones that were submerged in my crooked smile

I keep securing my spot with the devil

The devil is intelligent

Bad sweet sins feel soo good

But yet soo wrong

I’ve got to repent a marathon, that’s soo long

But what’s the point if I’m going to do it again

I guess I’m just a born sinner

My home was hell, fell down 7 times down the stairs

My alcoholic abusive step father

Slashed, whipped and beat me

Strangled, fought to kill me

At times i felt like God didn’t like me

My sweet sins were not roses, i saw myself as twisted thorns

My real dad died in a car crash

I was soul shattered, soo lost and soo gone

A black blossoming flower, raised in dirt diamond dirt

I hated the night time because destructive thoughts

Would haunt me and torment me

In all directions, trouble followed me

Left, right and centre

The demons in my psyche wanted me dead

The hood put a lucrative price on my head

Girly ghosts under my bleeding bed were my imaginary friends

The silence would whisper tortuous pain

And all my life i was infatuated with shining lust

Thinking it was eternal love

Broke promises, broke hearts

Slept with many, trusted none

Sold some bricks, brought some ice

Told sweet nothings, handed over some dreams

Walked with regret in my pocket

My surface, solid, hard as a rock

But deep down in my valley i was dying a thousand deaths

Deep down in my heart, I’m a fighter

Released the pen’s pain like a writer

Self hate ran through me, so I burnt myself with a lighter

 I keep securing my spot with the devil

The devil is intelligent

Bad sweet sins feel soo good

But yet soo wrong

I’ve got to repent a marathon, that’s soo long

But what’s the point if I’m going to do it again

I guess I’m just a born sinner

At times i felt to runaway but where would i run to?

Boxed in the land of the snakes

Friendship fakes, family fakes

And all i had was poetry

Only she knows what’s right for me

She was there for me, when no one else was there for me

Been through soo much at a young age

And she was there to soak in the words on the page

I guess I’m just twisted thorns repenting for ravishing roses

I guess I’m just a born sinner

Read between the lines

It’s an error how I was born in this era

Ahead of my time, like I’ve seen my future before

Made some mistakes, I’ll possibly make some more

I’m sinfully good, like an angel with demons

Painting a picture with words, a poetical Picasso

Travelling solo, not influenced by yolo

I don’t need to fit in; I don’t need to wear polo

Addicted to fatal attractions, material distractions

Narrating to God my sins, Qiyamah is around the corner

Generator to generate, elevate, motivate this generation is needed

Embedded behind these covers is my dark side, my love side

Labyrinth of thoughts, emotions in a maze going through a faze

Abandoning temporary things, adopting a long term mind set

Set up my trust to be sceptical of everything

Me & the mirror have mutual differences

Searching deeper for the soul of the man in the mirror

Punishing myself with criticism, faults & terror

If you dig deep into my poetry, you’ll find diamonds

Gold minds in these gold mines

Treasures to distract the scars

I’m two clouds away from the stars

Dreams imprisoned in a cage is my fear of failure

I’m rough around the edges, fighting the shackles of laziness

Mind is a closed warehouse full of craziness

In a perfect world with imperfect people

Imperfectly understood

Thirsty for knowledge but high on lust

Tired of living in this matrix

Tired of making effort with effortless

Worth soo much more than worthless

Put my Foot through the door, they will adore

My leg in the end will make me a (legend)

My circle gets smaller day by day

Praying to the lord everyday

Through thick & thin I’ll find a way

A world living off promises sold by professional liars

I don’t want sweet sorrows, just friendly fires

Black on black romance, my eternal desires

Real is just not real anymore

Dishonesty is everywhere, trust isn’t here anymore

Fornication everywhere, love is just not here anymore

Ignorance is everywhere; knowledge is just not here anymore

Read between the lines

My poetry is deep like gold mines

Read between the lines

You can’t put me in a box or veil me behind these blinds

Read between the lines

It’s you that I want, mind, body & soul

Can’t you see my struggles to obtain you as my lifetime goal?

Read between the lines

Time is my enemy, my inner me is battling my other me

What I love soo much is killing me

What I yearn for soo much is confusing me

Opinions couldn’t begin to define me

My heart defines me, truth hurt me

Fate has me, chasing success verily

Trying not to panic, I’m a hopeless romantic

Hopelessly out for quality & respect

Expect me to make a mistake

Take me as I’m, what you see is what you get

Read between the lines

More than a woman

If canoodles could make everything better, I would give you tongue tied trillions

I don’t think you understand what you mean to me

The world only see’s your inner broken mirrors, but you’re beautiful to me

I don’t care about your size, I don’t care about what media emphasize

The average Joe would possibly try to change your image

But you’re beautiful to me

Nobody seems to understand the picture you paint, but you’re Mona Lisa to me

Everything about you locks me, locks me up deeply

Your intelligence sparks a revolution within me

Your words smoothen my mind like a metaphorical massage

Every time you compliment me, my head explodes into tiny little flowers

I know your past was bitter sweet, tears of molten heat

But I’m here to prove to you, I’m different

I’m not a smoker or a drinker, just a lover and a thinker

I don’t do groupies; I’m hardly with my male friends

My feelings are never buried, I keep honesty on display

There is no doubt, whenever I look into your enchanting eyes

I see a fabulous future with you

There’s soo many fishes in the sea

But none of them have got that certified material for me

You’re the only chocolate mermaid for me

You steal the show, you win me over

I’ve never met anybody who can shake earthquakes in me

Earthquakes of ground breaking happiness

And my happiness is golden

My mother called you '' precious ''

That’s a sign, in a few years to come sipping on that wedding wine

Remember when, we were troublesome teenagers

And how I brought you those expensive flowers

We would talk for many hours

All those sleepless nights, pillow talks, jokes & laughter

I used to think you were a mystery in a maze

I was your secret admirer with these ambitious kisses to kiss you 

I never saw you as an imperfect person even through your smile was a disguise

A disguise to hide your deepest scars and lies upon lies

You went through hell and roads nobody could tell

Paths nobody could sell, like a freedom fighter you made it out of that cell

Your courage, your strength, your energy

Is beautiful to me

If I can’t make your heart azonto and make your butterflies twerk

Then my efforts are in vain, they won’t work  

It’s a chaos catastrophe if I’m not your king in the kitchen

Your homie at home, your Shakespeare in the sheets

Your kisses speak erotic heavens to me

Your sex game is narcotic Nintendo’s to me

You’re weird, wild and wonderful

Educated, funny & beautiful

It’s a poetic problem when we’re both poetically turned on

On fire, wet Fridays and romantic fire

You’re my one and only desire

Better than all of these basic birds

Basic bitches, you truly have me lost for words

More than amazing, more than a lover

More than a woman… 

Aaliyah - (Birthday Tribute)

I'm tired of writing 4 page letters; God has got to let you out of heaven tonight

I was wondering whether we could have a red candlelight dinner

Just you and me

No cameras, no extravagance, no fuss

This ever growing bond, nothing can come between us

I feel like Romeo when he first met Juliet

It’s not fair that the good die young and you were among those on flight

Scattered and breaking into pieces

If you hadn’t taken that plane, who knows? What destiny could have had in stores?

Soo angelic and heavenly

In my mind, in another life, you were my wife

And you wore a white dress with white swans dancing in the ponds

White limousines parked outside, white pebbles and white pearls spread across everywhere

Pure, perfect and precious

America misses you and the world is asking about you

Your voice soo touching, blooming and beautiful

Baby girl, it’s your birthday and I’m infatuated with caressing you poetically

Softly & romantically, smoothly and calmly

You’re more than a woman, more than an artist, more than immaculate

Let’s leave heaven, dress up, I want to show you, your present

It’s a shame on mother earth, you’re not present

Your fans, friends and family all anguished over there

You’re standing over there and I don’t know what to tell ya

My eyes go in lust, you look lush, luxurious

Voluptuous and scrumptious

Seeing you is a fetching luxury

A girl like you is one in a million

We salsa dance by the Susquehanna

Back and forth

We need a resolution before you go back to your heavenly home

It’s been lovely, your lovable, my lover that loves to be loving

Queen of damned, Aaliyah disappears

Like Trish and Han, Romeo must die